Currently am having my off day today, as was supposed to move into my new room apartment -- or so I thought -- but then plans were changed as I could only move into the place this coming Thursday. Anyways, just woke up from sleep a while ago, haven't been getting enough sleep these days. It's always been work work work and by the time I get home, its way past bed time and the temptation to blog is just.....nuff said.
I had a really funny dream early this morning. It was something I wouldn't have imagined myelf to dream about. I was lying down with my mother when she told me something that really ticked me off -- I think -- It was about her bringing a professor to our home and she said that he was going to sorta questioned me -- as in read what's going on with my mind -- as she found it hard for her to guess what was going on in my head.
I then flew out of the room in rage and anger, -- I don't know why myself -- and I lost what was happening after that. We appeared in another place, a place where I had been before in my dreams. It was a place where it was a sunny beautiful day but it was a grave yard. O M G. Hrmm. The professor was taking me to my grandfather's grave. Gosh, and in the dream I started crying and crying and crying. I couldn't stop crying! then I awoke. And to my surprise, I was crying in real life.
I think, THINK, I haven't gotten over my grandfather's death yet, and although he died 12 years ago -- omg, I can't believe how time flies -- I haven't actually been able to mourn over him properly. I still do miss him. People change over time and sometimes, try to leave their past behind, but no matter how hard you try to run, if you never faced your fears and past yet, it'll somehow always come back to haunt you.
I have to figure out how I'm gonna face this.
There has to be a reason to why I had this dream.
There always has to be a reason.
Everything happens for a reason.
Here's something I wrote.
Dreams.
I wept in my dreams.
I dreamed you lay in the grave;
I awoke, and the tears
still poured down my cheeks.
I wept in my dreams,
I dreamed you had left me;
I awoke and I went on weeping
long and bitterly.
I wept in my dreams,
I dreamed you were still kind to me;
I awoke, and still
the flow of my tears streams on.
7/30/07
heading for the shower now, gotta get bath and changed.
am going to see the new place laters with him.
♥ Yomi
I had a really funny dream early this morning. It was something I wouldn't have imagined myelf to dream about. I was lying down with my mother when she told me something that really ticked me off -- I think -- It was about her bringing a professor to our home and she said that he was going to sorta questioned me -- as in read what's going on with my mind -- as she found it hard for her to guess what was going on in my head.
I then flew out of the room in rage and anger, -- I don't know why myself -- and I lost what was happening after that. We appeared in another place, a place where I had been before in my dreams. It was a place where it was a sunny beautiful day but it was a grave yard. O M G. Hrmm. The professor was taking me to my grandfather's grave. Gosh, and in the dream I started crying and crying and crying. I couldn't stop crying! then I awoke. And to my surprise, I was crying in real life.
I think, THINK, I haven't gotten over my grandfather's death yet, and although he died 12 years ago -- omg, I can't believe how time flies -- I haven't actually been able to mourn over him properly. I still do miss him. People change over time and sometimes, try to leave their past behind, but no matter how hard you try to run, if you never faced your fears and past yet, it'll somehow always come back to haunt you.
I have to figure out how I'm gonna face this.
There has to be a reason to why I had this dream.
There always has to be a reason.
Everything happens for a reason.
Here's something I wrote.
Dreams.
I wept in my dreams.
I dreamed you lay in the grave;
I awoke, and the tears
still poured down my cheeks.
I wept in my dreams,
I dreamed you had left me;
I awoke and I went on weeping
long and bitterly.
I wept in my dreams,
I dreamed you were still kind to me;
I awoke, and still
the flow of my tears streams on.
7/30/07
heading for the shower now, gotta get bath and changed.
am going to see the new place laters with him.
♥ Yomi
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